Kagoshima love story.
Here in Kagoshima, people and visitors are physically and mentally relaxed and healed by pure nature, hot springs and kind people. On the other hand, Kyoto has special circumstance which is full of traditional Japanese culture, we call it “wa culture” such as gardens and native Kyoto people have traditional Japanese mentality, which is modest, affectionate and self-sacrificing. Many Japanese people feel that Kyoto is special place to go back to native traditional culture. Not only for that,Kyoto has special meaning to me and every time I hear the word “Kyoto”, I feel lonely, sentimental,romantic and heartbreaking. But still every so often I was urged to visit Kyoto to soak into the feeling of loneliness, sentiment, romance and heartbreak. Yes, I have the reason to do that.
I was very poor preparatory student in Kyoto. Yes, I failed the entry-exam of Kyoto Univ.
One day, I fell in love with one modest and typical-kyoto girl, who was also a . She was from very rich family and her father was the professor of university.
Her father was very strict, and he had already chosen a good gentle clever boy as his daughter's fiance.
The fiancé was very very kind to her and taught her as a personal tutor.
She appreciated his kind and gentle attitude toward her, actually she liked him so much. She also knew he loved her. So she herself imagined that she would get married with him in the future, before she met me.
After she met me, she thought and thought, which boy to love. After a while, she chose me.
The fiancé was so kind and gent-hearted, so he accepted my relation with her, saying “I will wait until I die”
I was very poor, and I could not give anything to her, but she loved me, because she thought she could give me joy and happiness, not receiving love, but giving love.
The fiancé waited for us and taught her as personal tutor every day, as if nothing had happened..
I felt so sorry for this situation and doubted I really would be the best man for her. After a long time, I decided I was not a man who bring true happiness to her than the fiancé.
Of course I knew we loved to each other, but I also knew her family didn't accept our relation and if I was with her, her family treated her so bad. So, finally I decided to withdraw from this relation.
I knew that the fiancé must be the best man for her future happiness and for her family.
I entered the university in Tokyo, not in Kyoto. Yes, I intentionally chose other city to keep distance from her. She tried to follow me, but failed.
She sent me letters almost everyday which were full of love and affection to me, saying she would willingly leave all and come to me, yes almost everyday. I sent her back but every time her father found my letter and teared them and throw away.
I worried about her life for a long time, I lied and phoned her good bye because I made other girl friend, and said to her to come back to the fiancé.
She cried and said “No! That must not be true, you know how I love you?. ” I wept but pretended I did not love her anymore, hanged up the phone.
Years later, I heard that she had married him, and I said to myself, yes, this is the best choice.
I really want to return to Kagoshima, not because I think it happened to meet her, but because it will make me immersed in this painful, but sweet feeling, as if there is hot springs in the cherry blossoms Blooming season.
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